JayMin_1

who started this trend of sharing how couples started out? was that you, noel? i can't remember. anyway, i like the idea & i'm jumping on the band-wagon. i like learning about all of you. here goes.....

my mom was in the hospital, & i was pretty bummed. i had managed to piss all my friends off & nobody was talking to me. i was lifting weights while partying, depriving myself of sleep, smoking substances, & drinking too much. my friends were tired of my sh!t & arranged for a "hook-up." they came to my studio apartment & pulled me out of bed to go to some 4th of july party. whoopee. i thought it was rude for them to wake me up @ 4pm. so, so rude.

well, i got dressed, spiked my hair, & smoked about 4 cigs to get mentally prepared for utter party gayness. there was nothing more painful than going to some party w/people i've never met before & i'd have to talk to them & stuff (oh, the horrors). as i got in the car my friend tells me that i may not fit in all that well w/the people @ the party. i'm like, "well, what are they like?"

my faced dropped when he told me that they were, like totally, radical, good-girl/cheer-leader types. oh my goodness. "do you hate me, steve?" i had a secret though: i'd always been the most attracted to cheer-leaders/preppies/good-girls. it was my little secret.

i was really depressed & felt like eeyore. a week before, i had an emotional break-down & got on my knees @ the side of my bed. w/my face stuffed into the mattress, i screamed @ God. when my rage had settled, i asked Him for forgiveness & a favor. i asked, "Lord, would you please send me a good-girl that's sweet & loving to help me get on track?. i'm drinkin'/druggin'/& fightin'- i need some balance, Lord?"

we pulled up to the house & i put on my dichotomous game face: too cool to acknowledge anything or anyone & dying inside to be a part & let myself have fun. i saw preppie shirts, big hair, & smelled lots of different perfumes. not to mention their were some really nice, tanned legs. there i stood looking/feeling like something the cat had drug in amongst the perfectly primped princesses of peppy-ness.

i got painfully introduced to bubbly, bright girls & was getting a bit bored. i felt like i had landed in the valley girl movie w/o any escape route. hi, hi, hey, yep, half-grin, blah, blah, blah. why are these people so gay/happy? "hey, ya want a wine cooler?" what? i asked of they had beer. miss party-pants-in-charge-girl says, "yeah, i think we do." what?

lastly, i shook hands w/this chick named mindy. she smiled @ me & her green eyes caught my eye. (not to mention that i noticed her nice figure) :-) i acted like i barely even noticed her & gave a little grunt that sounded something like, huh, & raised my eye-brows. she didn't give it much thought & bounced away like some happy bunny rabbit. this mindy girl was so happy. always smiling & socializing. i was less-than-thrilled when mindy sat next to me while somebody on crack suggested that we play some dorky board-game. man, who are these people?

during this board-game i discover that miss mindy is quite opinionated about women's rights. i was thinking to myself that she was anti-guy, so that's when i decided to look around the table @ the other ladies. :-) the longer that we were being subjected to the board-game, we actually struck up some conversations & it was weird.......... to be continued.............