mom,
i hope you have a great b-day, today. you'll probably never read this. that's okay- life here on earth can be hard. there are no easy answers for major dysfunction & pain. i'm thinking on you, this morning. the tears come crashing in. i'm praying for your health (mental & physical) & for your safety. we last talked when you called to tell me that dad had passed away. i'm sad that you didn't call me back to tell me about when some sort of service for dad would take place. i'm not mad, because it's best for all that we stay away from each other. feelings of guilt & regret don't take away that trust was lost & would need rebuilding.
with that said, i'd like to let you know the things that i appreciate/value/admire about you. you have a way w/flowers & gardens & things grow beautifully under your care. your drawings/paintings were so beautiful. what an artsy gift you have. i have always been in amazement at your ability to do math problems in your head (word problems/trig/calc)- truly amazing. you used to trip me out when you could tell me what page a topic would be on in an encyclopedia- your photographic memory was so cool. your hospitality & jovial spirit were 2nd to none. you were a room brightener.
overall: i pray peace, protection, & joy over you. i pray that you allow Jesus to do His work in you w/o reservation. i pray that someday we can build our relationship the right way. i pray for your healing.
your son,
jason russell
1 comments:
i feel your pain jay. i had a painful relationship with my mother for years. we didn't talk for a long time, slowly things have gotten to be better/good. but only in the last 5 years or so.
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